Moving between the observation ambiguously anomalous phenomena as philosophical observation and incoherent acceptance is an edge that has no reconciliation to it. Probably in terms of ‘occult development’ in the ‘systems’ it may well be totally incompatible. Yet these observations such as I can come back from this world to make them is what I’m trying to do here. To this extent I want to share what happened to me yesterday and note how illustrative it is of the pneuminous-vector theory put forward here (accepting that is only one manifestation).
I went for a walk with some dogs. As it happens I was indulging in an old practice that I haven’t done with any regularity for years. This is that of eye crossing as mentioned in the much (possibly with good cause) maligned Casteneda books. If you don’t know it, it’s a bit like looking at magic eye pictures without the magic eye picture. You look to a point beyond everything in your vision, then look to a point in front of your vision, you repeat this for a long time. This activity is attributed with enabling a variety of things e.g. mind clearing, hypnogogic generating, other world perceiving. Answering what it actually does involves submitting to a given manifestation (is it a psychological or a magickal effect) which one cannot do.
In this instance I am indulging in an incoherent non-directed magickal type interaction. I don’t know why I’m doing it as such but it seems an interesting exercise in what I might perceive -given that in the past it has yielded some anomalous results. If I indulge a projected feeling I note that I perceive the effect feels quite strong, this again is a kind of incoherent articulation of otherworldly perception, or the closeness of that world. Recent Keelian, Reichian and Trevor James Constable readings have put me in a place of considering ultraterrestrial existence in the ether. There is an openness. Despite this general feeling I walk and eye cross with medium concentration success. The sensation is interesting but nothing really peculiar is perceived. I forget about this and continue to do this activity as I go through a small pine copse that has come to be known as ‘creepy wood’. I have no sense of perturbation by creepy wood, though it does look a bit creepy and I can note that if one pressed me for a feeling, I would say it doesn’t feel very nice (I have in fact owing to my Twin Peaks pathology, come to associate it with Ghostwood). Again though such feelings can just be a double projection based upon its appearance in relation to various media images of ‘spooky woods’ rather than to any innate iniquity that I am picking up on.
However as I go through a certain section, still crossing my eyes I see fairly clearly and with some alarm that a section of wooded area to my left moves like a shadow went across it. This arrests me and gives me a mild alarm. Not wanting to indulge in literally being startled by me own shadow I move back to test if the phenomena is cause by my blocking light. I discover this clearly isn’t the case and move on slightly hastily. I consider that whatever it was I saw might indeed be some product of the eye crossing activity, either a trick product or actually perceiving some kind of spirit type accretion. I consider in my mode of allowing these kinds of thoughts that it is close to midsummer which is classically a time of some thinness and that this idea, if only as accretion could facilitate such beings to be more visible. I continue the walk with no further weirdness. I go home finish the evening activities and go to bed.
About 12:30 I awake from an awful nightmare of some kind of being closing in on me in a situation there is no escape from. This sensation of trappedness causes me to jerk myself awake. Immediately my mind connects the vision from the wood with the nightmare invoking the paranoia that the whatever it was has followed me from creepy wood and now is plaguing me in its own special way. I commence a series of banishing type rituals in my minds eye which I feel are being fought as I conduct them. I remember -because of the Castaneda crossing activity- some spouting of Don Juan’s about certain kinds of things that inhabit lonely places and will sometimes latch onto people. None of which is helpful. Eventually I calm myself and go back to sleep. There are no more nightmares.
None of the point of my telling any of this is the reality of a spooky story. The point is entirely about the ability of the NARP to accrete this tale and what it illustrates. My general NARP as confessed has a kind of openness to these phenomena and simultaneously a recognition of what the sceptic will say to deny them. From a strong occult perspective the story facilitates an image of beings that live in the woods and can follow the unwary home, or minimally some kind of encounter with a spirit/ghost in the wood -even the occultist would not believe it necessary the dream was directly brought about by the entity.
From a sceptical point of view it’s a kind of trick of the light/my eyes that I got into a flap about because I was predisposed to spooky thoughts. The dream may have been entirely unrelated -remember I had no negative sense from this encounter until after the fact- and had more to do with the red wine that than anything else.
Yet pneuminous-accretively we have a tale that sits astride both these versions. There is a good chance if I think that wood looks a bit creepy (whatever we mean by that) so do other people. Hence the vector region that is the wood will be infected with this feedback. If the strong pneuminous theory holds, then the seeing-the-wood-as-creepy is actually making it so. Our accreted fantasies attach to this vector predisposing the place to phenomena like I witnessed. Now whether or not I saw a something that could in any reasonable sense be said to be there without me -something that belonged ‘there’- is immaterial (pardon the pun). My perception of it, despite my sceptical checking decided it was some kind of spirit, the phenomena was seen-as that. The vector of whatever I saw is impressed with this notion. The nightmare is a perfect extra segment in the accretive story. It immediately summons the events of earlier in the wood and makes sense of the unity -combined with the warnings of a fictitious Yacqui Shaman. The fantasy of the nightmare summoning spirit from the wood is created and tenuously it is a real connection (because my NARP has connected it). The banishing rituals in this sense did not attest to a real spirit that needed banishing, they were necessary to break apart the accreted pneuma by completing its own narrative (if I cannot flip to so stronger rational materialism as to rob the event of any effect it is better to seal it off on its own terms).
So in the quasi-rational way I tried to diffuse my own automatic accretion mechanisms. It is interesting to consider though how, had I not these reflections I might easily be swept along with a much more naïve occult-realist approach. This in turn would feedback into the existence of the same putative entity forming a greater pneuminous power as a ‘negative spirit’ in that region. Literally a optical trick would be transformed into an accreted entity that in turn would be visible to others and in turn perpetuate the notion of autonomous spirits (which in fairness is exactly what it would be).
Of course such claims are not claims to the explanation. I act here as an agent of various chaos magickal notions. The possibility of the outright utter nonsense of all it in a psychologically discrete materialist world is a serious contender as is the realist occult world in which autonomous ultra-terrestrial style entities can hover in and out of our plane of existence. This is the agnostic disjunction. The pneuminous accretive-vector version needs to be seen to be on the table as a third force. This is of course recognizable as chaos magickal doctrine, the addition I try to push here (on the site generally) is that the same notion is necessarily occurring for all our everyday objects and functions as a cogent ontology that covers magickal and regular phenomena equally.