The behind the scenes of a common experimental writer.

Lis is italicized.

Nov 8, 2021, 7:38 AM

Pls do give me a hi when you see this to say you’re ok

Nov 8, 2021, 11:59 AM

Hey G

I’m ok! I’m safe here

Plus they’re seemingly dissipating

Or at least it has been considerably peaceful for a whole week already

The number and stone stuff is fascinating. What jumps at me more right now is the mineral double

Nov 8, 2021, 4:06 PM

Since I’m dealing with stuff such as bodies; organisms; vegetables; spores; viruses, etc.

The consistency of taking mineral “life” (?) into account is a hard thing to solve

It’s the least relatable form of life on Earth, I guess, to us at least

Yet we’re composed mostly of minerals and water

Nov 8, 2021, 4:08 PM

D&G have that nice essay on nomadism in which they talk about the iron in our bodies and think of the ages (bronze age, iron age, etc.) in terms of these molecular components.

Nov 8, 2021, 4:10 PM

I think it’s safe to assume that minerals are, in a way, primordial life. We like to think of ourselves as higher forms of life due to some pre-conceived notion of complexity, but something like iron is part of our blood’s composition and vital to all life on Earth. Even plants get their nutrients not really from photosynthesis, but use that energy to tap directly into minerals and water with their roots and transfer them in flows and influxes

Have you heard of the crystals that grow and the debate whether they’re life or not?


True, psychoactives should all be considered power plants really. Yes, it’s destructive mostly because of things like ephedra, which in large amounts might kill you. This is weird because Dan himself shits on drugs all the time. There’s two more details though, of this thing I felt: The first is that the way my body was looked pretty much like the body of that giant presence I said felt like the moon. Only my body was normal-sized, of course. It was tall, like in the second ring of power, I felt like a basketball player. But nothing excessive like that 30m woman. But it was the same vague outline constantly changing, of bluish hue going from dark to light, and grainy like sand. Let’s not forget that it was seemingly spontaneous, that I just felt that it needed to happen.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:01 PM

But when I exited, and started to think like a super-computer, everything was clear. I exited to fight. This body wasted no time in finding some of these death cult people’s and literally dealing blows on them. There was no other choice. Quite literally, I don’t think the double can choose anything. I’m not one to feel anger or understand it well. Maybe that’s what pushed this exit. I was out for 5 hours. The recollection of what transpired after the body left the room is murky.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:04 PM

I remember clearly that it pulled its own “heart” and used as a knife that it could throw. It could also change into a specter-like intangible form and a more solid form. It was cold anger incarnate. Or de-incarnated. It was pretty insane the amount of detail it had to compute, and I only felt that not retracing every step would lead to my death. For example, if it threw the knife to sever a line put there by the cult, if the same movement wasn’t reverted back, my heart was done. Its mission was seemingly to destroy these lines like webs forming around the square.


Nov 18, 2021, 12:08 PM

Do you know about pontos riscados? This cult is putting them across the city‘s square.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:08 PM

so hang on did you actually go and beat some people up or you mean your double came out and did this?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:08 PM

My double (if it was really the double that I achieved)

Nov 18, 2021, 12:09 PM

I don’t know it, some cursey shit yes?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:10 PM

My body was dozing off in a chair. It’s these glyphs you trace on the floor like a circuit. Forming something like transmutation circles

Nov 18, 2021, 12:10 PM

it seems almost certain, it came out and tried to sort some mess out that was hostile to you

Nov 18, 2021, 12:10 PM

The double could see the lines emanating from the hidden glyphs (they cover them). And used this knife to sever the lines like deactivating the magick

Nov 18, 2021, 12:11 PM

is it one of those voodooy things?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:11 PM

It really went for what I think are the people that traced them?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:11 PM

yes I totally get it, it went mopping up

Nov 18, 2021, 12:11 PM

It just smacked people once

And went for the next

For 5 hours

Nov 18, 2021, 12:12 PM

but this is madness.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:12 PM

It was pretty insane. O can’t remember it all. I*

Nov 18, 2021, 12:12 PM

what the fuck is going on that they set magick like that on you in first place?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:12 PM

If you have defeated their lines this will probably harm them physically

I would imagine

Nov 18, 2021, 12:13 PM

I don’t think they know anymore. It started as some cousins trying to slowly introduce me to this group of people messing with spells and terreiros and such. They went slowly, not knowing I was pretty into magick already. Then after a full year of these parties and encounters, I told them I wanted to stop for a while and they didn’t like that at all

That’s what started

Nov 18, 2021, 12:14 PM

ok since we’re playing madness here do you think your infection could have been related to the cursey thing?

it just leaps out at me

Nov 18, 2021, 12:14 PM

Maybe, it did start when I started dreaming harder. It could also be the double’s first appearance that needed all my energy. And then I got sick in preparation. I’m eager to think it’s less a matter of them harming me and more a matter of a part of me getting tired of this and putting things in order for the exit. I had seen the double and felt it, but never became it and remembered like this

Nov 18, 2021, 12:17 PM

no but I think the harming you might have kickstarted you into action

as it were

Nov 18, 2021, 12:17 PM

Possibly. It is most likely the case of a push-and-pull thing

Nov 18, 2021, 12:18 PM

but this is also all an exciting correlate to what I just wrote

Nov 18, 2021, 12:18 PM

Almost like it invited these people. Because they seem to feel trapped.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:18 PM

the double as a weird autonomous thing that one can kind of move into

Nov 18, 2021, 12:18 PM

It’s like they have to do this, they’re deteriorating slowly

Nov 18, 2021, 12:19 PM

so my little poke around renders this stuff as brazilian-afro voodoo hybrid, is that fair?

Nov 18, 2021, 12:19 PM

Yes, it’s really Umbanda and candomblé. There may be other stuff in the mix though. But it’s mostly the two big ones.

Nov 18, 2021, 12:20 PM

Receded for now. Police pulled-up. Somebody made a call. Wasn’t me.

Dec 15, 2021, 9:59 PM

PAUSE (communication)

Eerily calm (I am)

Dec 15, 2021, 10:22 PM

Having a Castaneda-worthy weekend over here. This has reached new grounds.

Dec 18, 2021, 7:06 PM

Exponential growth this weekend.

(heart stopped twice. Not a problem anymore)

Dec 19, 2021, 7:20 PM

(They dealt two successful blows that stopped my heart, but I came back and now I quite weirdly can produce electromagnetism on small scale. I am as of now plugged to the machine but feeling the electricity through my body and redirecting it back to it. The machine is fuming. I saw so many things. I now understand why DJ says to CC that the true form of sorcerers is not a ball of light but a two split bands of light with seemingly nothing in the middle. I was split like this, and I saw myself in this way and understood it. Everything is a lot clearer, in general.

Dec 19, 2021, 7:23 PM

There is no more “it seems” or “I think”. That day the other came into one side of my body and the body was shared by two distinct awarenesses, it was the first step to what my own personal power brought these people to do so as to achieve the complete splitting of that incomplete state. Still, I wouldn’t wish this weirdness upon anyone. My every second of being alive now is a constant feeling of solitude followed by continuous epiphanies “and yet…”

Dec 19, 2021, 7:26 PM

There is no day or night anymore, only twilight. It’s always in-between. Physiologically so, my eyes only see a soft blue hue in the sky. My lack of filter is honed, and now I can organize better the perception that was already there.

Dec 19, 2021, 7:28 PM

I am here

it is just difficult to organise time to reply to this stuff

I feel a bit all over the place

christmas chaos

and other stuff, almost the inversion of what you’re saying

I hope you’re ok

I will do the book thing but I’m afraid I have no guarantees it will be this year now as when I finish on weds that’s me out of action until the fourth

I hope this isn’t too annoying, at least there is no massive rush as we still have CC to collate and sort

I need to release ship of theseus too

And directed to pylons

Dec 20, 2021, 1:42 PM

pylons of course haha

Dec 20, 2021, 1:42 PM


Dec 20, 2021, 1:42 PM

did you play terraria ever?

Dec 20, 2021, 1:42 PM


Dec 20, 2021, 1:42 PM

my boys play that shit all the time, it’s mental

Dec 20, 2021, 1:43 PM

It’s weird but I think my body has become resistant to it. It doesn’t work anymore. We’re trying right now… It doesn’t work. I feel the magnetic-like pull/push. But no electricity. And even the cat is scared to enter the room. She feels the waves, it seems.

Never played

Dec 20, 2021, 1:44 PM

that wasn’t random by the way, the game terraria

Dec 20, 2021, 1:45 PM

My little brother is into it

Dec 20, 2021, 1:45 PM

features all sorts of lovecraft references

and pylons that teleport you

Dec 20, 2021, 1:45 PM

It’s probably a bit after my time as a hardcore gamer

Dec 20, 2021, 1:45 PM

I don’t play anything but it looks like the best game that ever existed to me

Dec 20, 2021, 1:45 PM

It is pretty awesome

I’ve seen it

I’ve tried to get into games lately, but I’m not into that space right now

The weirdness sucks me back

Dec 20, 2021, 1:46 PM

have you heard of blackmore before then?

Dec 20, 2021, 1:53 PM

I think if it’s ok with you, it would cool to write a weird account of this into VM, I could do it after 2.2 comes back

Glad about stock, send me a copy when it’s done

Feb 21, 2022, 7:51 AM

Do you mean to print the proofs and the book there? Is the quality ok? Mike and I put a lot of stuff quality-wise, so it should be heavy on the printers price-wise.

Feb 21, 2022, 7:53 AM

If it’s ok with you, it would be even better to print it there. Reprints are probably less costly after that (using a KDP-like service).

But I’ll leave all that with you, decide what’s best. The quality of the book is what matters most to me and Germán.

Feb 21, 2022, 7:55 AM

I can do the diagrams, though (if it’s not feasible)

The diagrams are really alike Amy’s

She’s working on something like this. I saw it after. I work with the notion of the human form through light, she focuses on sound.

The result is similar

Feb 21, 2022, 7:58 AM

well you’ve seen parasol

I think that looks ok

and it’s not like kdp is known for some gold quality standard

so I don’t suppose you’re any worse off with these printers

the big problem will be the initial cash outlay

Feb 21, 2022, 8:04 AM

the isbn is the kicker really, this was kdps big advantage

Feb 21, 2022, 8:23 AM

ideally we should find the £164 for 10 isbns

as forking out £89 for one is a bit of a shit,

the printers will sort all this for you but it is then more like £120

Feb 21, 2022, 8:26 AM

Is that feasible?

These printers are from the library?

Feb 21, 2022, 9:47 AM

Book Printing UK: We Make Book and Booklet Printing Simple.

No no, parasol is outsourced to these people

Feb 21, 2022, 11:29 AM

so the situation isn’t brilliant financially, there is approximately £150 we could spare to for IA, if and this is quite a big if, mike says the ratio of his document is compatible with A5 and if you were happy with a no isbn book then it would be around £260 (a shortfall of £90ish but these aren’t exacts), if wanted the isbn we need a minimum of £90. That would be a galling expense as I would still have to work out how to assign it and if we’re doing that I would rather, as I said above buy 10 for £164

Apr 21, 2022, 11:14 AM


Parasol paper?

Apr 21, 2022, 2:09 PM


Apr 21, 2022, 2:32 PM

What will be the price, you think?

Apr 21, 2022, 2:50 PM

It’s a good question

Postage is a bastard, I’ll have to send snail mail as it will add £10 for all the non euro countries

Which isn’t ideal but adding £20 just isn’t an option

So I think it will have to go £25ish

But this is no different to what we were going to charge at amazon at least

Apr 21, 2022, 4:44 PM

At this cost the first 20 will make no money esp as I have to send 5 for free (with him paying postage)

To german

If they all sell then it is rosier as the reprint costs £12.75

Apr 21, 2022, 4:46 PM

I’m forgetting a small regional variation here

Uk can be about £20

Europe about £22

These prices will stay the same on the second run

And make a some money on the printing, but it would be a long way to go to have actually made any money

As I’m sure you can imagine

But still profit is never really the aim

Apr 21, 2022, 4:51 PM

Cool, so it’s to be sold cheaper than before

That’s great

Apr 21, 2022, 5:26 PM

Yeah that’s an advantage of pre print, we can control regional price

Apr 21, 2022, 5:44 PM

Hey G

Show the video of the book to Germán too


From the part where I comment on part 12 being about power.

3:40 AM

The “crack” is important for the narrative, and opens space for the real invasive forces of the cult here.

They’re not evil, just strange..

What do you think? It goes into a Sellarsian route

3:45 AM

The girls here gave me a full pass and Mónica is working on her Faustian stuff and enjoys the play

3:49 AM

This path involves actual intrigue in the form of infra-narrativity (it’s real but veiled).

3:50 AM

The girls like to be called Succubi. Mónica is called Birdie.

If you’d like to change

4:54 AM


I could do it, but it would take from your “vision” of Bliss as interview.

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As Feinberg has noted, these instruments were principally applied as ‘contemplative aids for the condemned’. A tavoletta would be executed as part of a larger ritual ceremony ‘[entailing] extensive songs, prayers and consoling dialogue. Many parts of this ceremony evolved from much older, even ancient rituals conducted for those facing imminent death, the gravely ill as well as the criminal or the martyr.’(1) The ligature “&” effectuates a process of graphic autophagy. I retrofit the ligature with a token “a” to produce a phrase “(e)(a)(t)” where the retrofitted item precipitates the protocol it helps to name. Operationally, the ligature is clarified at the phantom retrofitted field upon which the tokens (e) and (t) would like to graze. These tokens, as the poet Maz Himyari has pointed out to me, might prepare placeholders for all manner of mixed/nominally opposed referents, and are reconciled via an alchemical coniunctio or centripetal traversal about the retrofitted terrain.

1 Larry J. Feinberg, “Imagination all compact: tavolette and confraternity rituals for the condemned in renaissance Italy”, Apollo, volume 161, May 2005, 48-57.

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